Pregnancy Hiccup

//Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all//

proverbs 3:5-6

Thursday 11/29/12

It all began. I went in for an AFI and NST tests to measure amniotic fluid and baby's heart rate as well as a regular weekly midwife appointment. At the end of the 5 minute visit- due to no new questions for her, she checked Isaac's heart rate and it was around 100 bpm. She quickly hooked me to the NST monitor for 30 minutes and within 20 minutes she grabbed Margie another Midwife to read the monitor. They exclaimed "not to worry, but to be routine let's have you go to the "Birthing Inn" (labor and delivery) to be better monitored. I immediatly called Michael to come, and bring some entertainment due to being monitored for 2 hours. 

at 1 hours the RN Mary- who was not the peachiest, kept saying it didn't look good- well then damnit get the midwife!

I was calm until the RN put me on oxygen and said lets see if this will help. To be honest I was scared for my baby, and me. The midwife on call was Courtney and she finally came to explain that they thought the baby's heartrate was dropping down too often. What was discussed was possible emergency C/S or to begin induction. In days prior I'd exclaim "yes we are ready to have this baby.." but in this very moment when it's not up to you...I was not ready. 

Luckily Courtney had had 3 c/s and was able to calm my nerves and really helped me understand the next step. 

We try to plan through our pregnancy a birth we would like...I wanted to attempt natural childbirth...Due to growing up, knowing pain during birth was normal, and something not to fear. 

In this instance, it wasn't about me, it was about Isaac being safe and healthy, he was already term at 38 weeks. Still it was scary, Michael was amazing and at calming me down. 

They did a sonogram later in the evening, and he passed, measuring his tone, heart rate, placenta cord flow, amniotic fluid. They still continued to monitor over night, but the next day we were discharged to go home, and could continue to lead a normal life until baby was ready to come on his own.

I'm thankful for the wonderful care team that asked for assistance when looking at the heart rate monitor- a team of 4 Doctor's plus my midwife decided that it wasn't his heart rate that was dropping but the "drops" were actually his baseline. 

And I am thankful for this hiccup because it prepared me that birth isn't perfect, and can't always be planned. It's the unknown, it's up to the baby. But what we can do is educate ourselves in all different kinds of birthing, not just the one we would love to do.